Quick Update on how the Challenge is going

I’m nearly 20 days into the January Fitness Challenge and I have to tell you, it’s getting harder by the day. Perhaps it has to do with my perfectionistic attitude… maybe it’s my eating disorder background… but this is HARD! Tracking every little thing I do and eat, and how much I weigh, is fantastic when things are going my way… and soul crushing when they are not. It’s no secret I’ve battled bulimia and compulsive eating my entire life… and even though it’s been over 20 years since I’ve actively participated in that craziness, I’m shocked that the triggers are still there, though I really shouldn’t be. 

A little extra self care is needed… I’ve loosened up a bit on the paleo diet. I believe being so strict for the first couple of weeks led to a binge this past weekend, classic all or nothing perfectionistic behavior. Lovely, eh? So… my while calorie count has remained generally the same overall, I’m no longer going to stress about being perfectly paleo. I added beans to that chili… oh yes I did! I ate a few dark chocolate covered espresso beans… and I added some greek yogurt back in. I’m hoping that by getting out of the deprivation mindset, I’ll avoid any future binges. It’s a slippery slope and I sure as hell never want to go back there again. 

One other thing… I stopped getting on the scale a few days ago. I can’t handle it. When it’s down, I’m thrilled… but when it’s up… it’s maddening. There were days when I did everything “right” and still the scale went up. There were a few days in a row when I was “perfect” and the scale went up. Nearly three weeks into the challenge and the overall total is only 5 pounds down. It drives people like me crazy. 

I have been doing Crossfit for over a year now. My body has changed, but I certainly have another 50 pounds to lose. I don’t yet “look” like a Crossfitter. All this time I honestly thought that the reason I haven’t dropped the weight was because I wasn’t paleo enough. I’ve read tons of stories online about people who’ve done Crossfit for a year and they look amazing… lost 60-70 pounds… changed their lives, etc. Well that’s not me… I’m 15 months into my journey and down only 23 pounds… and even though they are big on me, I’m still wearing a size 18W pant because of the dang waist.  Now that I’ve spent three full weeks being pretty darn perfect (minus the binge!), and the scale hasn’t moved in any significant way… I’m baffled. Sure… 5 pounds in 3 weeks is good. I’m happy with that… but I expected more. I hear stories ALL THE TIME about people who lose huge amounts of weight by going paleo… again, that just isn’t me. WHY??? Is it the PCOS (hormone imbalance that I have… which is still here despite me having no active symptoms). Is it that I’ve blown out my metabolism from the crazy stuff I did in High School and College? Regardless of the cause, it’s infuriating! 

So what’s the plan? It’s what the plan always is… stay the course! Keep doing what I’m doing… keep eating paleo most of the time… keep working out 4+ days a week, maybe adding in an extra cardio session here or there now that my road bike is here and so much fun!!! Honestly, what’s the alternative… give up? Go back??? Not an option. I’ve worked too long and too hard just to get here… I’m not giving up now. I’m meeting with the Bod Pod people on Monday to help narrow in my calorie range and see exactly where I need to be. At least that will give me the peace of mind about how much I’m eating and if it’s the right amount for me. 

Overall, I’m hanging in there… still tracking all the trackable stuff, except the weight. Not sure when I’ll get back on the scale. It’s not worth it right now. Hope the rest of you are hanging in there as well! The year is off to a pretty good start, despite not quite meeting my exceedingly high and perfectionistic expectations. Lol!!! The Universe is teaching me a lesson here… I’ve just go to start paying attention and figure it out. 🙂


January Fitness Challenge

Sorry in advance. This is going to be a little boring for a bit. My gym is having a Fitness Challenge and I need somewhere to keep track of everything I do and everything I eat… and it has to be a blog. I have a blog… easy-peasy! I’ll be posting all the boring stuff and updating as needed… but won’t be linking it to facebook or anything. Lol! No one really cares about that sort of stuff. 😉


Jan 1… Fight Gone Bad, 199 reps
(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(300) 3 eggs
(40) Tea with half and half
(155) Cabbage with sausage
(300) Blackeye peas with Sausage, little smidge of rice
(500) Apple with Almond Butter
(0) Apple Cider Tea
1695 Total

Jan 2
(40) Tea with half and half
(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(700) Sausage and Eggs
(300) Kale and fruit protein smoothie with ginger
(600) Chili
(40) Tea with half and half
(500) Chili
2580 Total

Jan 3… 5rds… 6 bench press (85#), 12 Cleans, 1/2 from the hang (95#), 72 Jumps… 18:19
(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(300) Kale and Fruit Protein Smoothie
(400) Chili (from Greene Turtle Restaurant)
(500) Cobb Salad (from Greene Turtle Restaurant)
(712) Tomato soup with chicken, avocado, sunflower seeds, and parm cheese
(0) Plain tea
2312 Total

Jan 4
(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(300) Mean Green Protein Smoothie
(517) Tomato Soup with avocado and sunflower seeds
(40) Tea with half and half
(500) Burger, no bun (5 Guys)
(225) A few Peanuts (5 Guys)
(0) Tea, plain
(404) Tomato Soup with Sunflower Seeds
(65) Raspberries
Total 2451

Jan 5
(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(360) Mean Green Protein Smoothie
(280) Grilled Chicken
(300) Roasted Butternut Squash
(130) Dressing, Cesear
(60) Apple Sauce
(320) Chocolate Covered Coconut
Total 1870

Jan 6…Fit Test…3rm ft sqt(165#), 500m row(2:03), AMRAP 6 Burp plate jumps, 10 kbsw (35#), 15 Air Squats (6 rds+3 Bps)
Plus Oly gym work, 1rm snatch(100) and 2rm front squat(175)
(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(336) 3 eggs
(360) Mean Green Protein Smoothie
(290) Tomato soup with hard boiled egg
(377) Stuffed pepper
(250) Parsley Buttered potatoes
(50) Applesauce
(300) Apple and Almond Butter
2363 Total

Jan 7

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(377) 2 Eggs, 2 bacons, Avocado
(360) Mean Green Protein Smoothie
(300) 5oz. Pot Roast
(300) 2c Roasted Butternut Squash
(469) Tomato soup with sunflower seeds and parm cheese
Total 2246

Jan 8

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(387) 3 eggs, 2 bacon, avocado
(360) Mean Green Smoothie
(360) 1 cup shelled pistachios
(937) Salad with various veggies, raisins, sunflower seeds, parm cheese, grilled chicken, and dressing
(50) Tea with Paleo Creamer
Total 2494

Jan 9…18m amrap, 10 gtoh 25# plate, 10 oh lunges w/plate, 10 jumping sqts, 90 jumps. (6rds, 10gtoh, 7lunges)…plus 2×5 bench (95#), 1×5 bench (105#), 4×10 bent over bar row (85#).

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(330) 3 eggs in butter
(679) Leafy green salad with veggies, cheese, sunflower seeds, raisins, dressing, and pot roast
(50) Tea with Paleo Creamer
(578) 5 ounce burger (no bun) with peppers and onions, roasted veggies with olive oil
(300) Apple with Almond Butter
Total 2337

Jan 10… 5 rds various skill work, level 2 lifting

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(380) Sausage and Eggs
(585) Elevation Burger (no bun) and mandarin oranges
(50) Tea with Half and Half
(200) Mean Green Protein Smoothie
(???) Dodge Ball Party, ate all Paleo
Total unknown

Jan 11

(400) Bulletproof coffee
(690) Chili with beans and cheese
(1034) Spinach salad with fruit and veggies, grilled chicken, avocado, sunflower seeds, cheese, dressing
Total 2124

Jan 12

(400) Bulletproof coffee
(807) Chili with avocado and cheese
(80) Mixed fruit
(175) Pomegranate
(828) Paleo Pancakes (2 eggs, 2 bananas, 1T butter), bacon and maple syrup
Total 2290

Jan 13… 20 min clean and jerk form work (65-85#), 4m amrap 15 Thrusters/p.u., Snatch practice (5×55, 65, 65, 65, 77, 77#)

(400) Bulletproof coffee
(300) 3 eggs
(614) Protein smoothie with leftover spinach salad
(300) Small apple and almond butter
(50) tea with half and half
(544) 6oz baked ham and brussels sprouts
Total 2383

Jan 14… 15, 30-second sprints at 6.0

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(626) 1/2 Towering Onion Rings (Red Robin)
(900) Red, White, and Bleu Salad with dressing (Red Robin)
(120) Coconut Water
(609) Chili over roasted cauliflower with cheese
Total 2655

Jan 15… 3×4 Snatches (55#, 75, 85, 85), 2k row, 30 sq cl 75#, 300 singles

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(200) 2 eggs
(120) Coconut Water
(300) Green Smoothie with protein
(190) Almond Butter
(70) Hard boiled egg
(870) Salad topped with bbq pulled pork, veggies, and almonds, with dressing
(50) Tea with half and half
Total 2200

Jan 16… 21-18-15-12-9 Push Presses (55#) Hanging Knee Raises (8:31)

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(200) 2 eggs
(554) Chocolate Almond Green Protein Smoothie
(304) Peanut butter and banana
(50) Tea with half and half
(388) Baked chicken breast
(600) Italian Green Bean Casserole (bread crumbs inside)
(156) 2/3rds pomegranate
Total 2652

Jan 17… Death by box jumps (12-inch) and Snatches (65#), 3.5 mile road bike

(300) 3 Eggs
(100) Post workout protein
(104) Banana
(642) Salad with turkey, egg, sunflower seeds, almonds, dressing, parm cheese
(656) Grilled chicken salad
(200) Almond Butter
Total 2002

Jan 18

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(746) 3 eggs and grits made with milk
(1700) approx. Frozen pizza
(133) yogurt and granola
Total 2979, approx

Jan 19

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(860) Roasted chicken salad with veggies, nuts, cheese, and dressing
(120) Greek yogurt
(890) Chili with greek yogurt and cheese
(364) Apple with chocolate cashew butter
Total 2634

Jan 20… 12min amrap 4 clean and jerks (85#), 12 wall balls (14#), 3 jumping pull ups on top of minute. Plus, Oly work, snatches, ohs, fs.

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(150) Shaved deli turkey
(430) Chili
(201) Green protein smoothie
(326) Chili
(660) 2 cups pistachios in shell
(221) Chocolate covered espresso beans
(160) Greek yogurt
Total 2548

Jan 21

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(310) Turkey and spinach sandwich
(221) Espresso beans, dark chocolate
(330) Pistachios in shell
(904) Shephard’s Pie, 2 cups
(160) Greek Yogurt
(234) Pomegranate
Total 2159

Jan 22… 15min amrap, 5 push presses (95#), 10 lunges with bar (95#), 10 box jumps. 3rm push press, 125#

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(100) Turkey
(170) Mixed nuts
(221) Chocolate espresso beans
(350) Tomato soup with almonds
(50) Apple sauce
(700) Taco Salad
(200) Tomato Soup, plain
(100) After workout protein
Total 2291

Jan 23… 10 30/30 Sprints at 6.0, 50 push presses, 50 squat cleans, 50 full squat snatches (all 45#)

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(750) Tomato Soup with turkey and almonds
(100) Protein after Workout
(280) Banana and cashew butter
(700) Salad from Outback
(100) Tea with half and half
Total 2330

Jan 24… 5-4-3-2-1 Snatches (65#), Burpee pull ups, 250 row, 12:03

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(200) Turkey
(550) Hamburger, five guys
(300) 1/2 Single fries, five guys
(100) Coke
(900) Grilled Cheese
(383) Tomato soup with grilled chicken
(50) Tea with half and half
Total 2883

Jan 25

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(120) Z-bar
(340) Mixed nuts
(200) Roasted veggies
(300) Chips
(250) Cocoa
(612) Meatloaf
(50) Roasted Veggies
Total 2272

Jan 26

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(640) 2 eggs, 2 bananas, maple syrup (paleo pancakes)
(360) pistachios, 1 cup
(825) Chicken spinach salad
(50) Tea with cream
Total 2275

Jan 27…10 sq cl thrusters (75#), 30 jpu, 30 bench dips, 10 sq clean thrusters, 10:16, Oly work in pm

(400) Bulletproof Coffee
(100) Apple
(250) Green Smoothie with protein
(???) High Tea 🙂
(300) Pan fried tilapia, no batter
(50) Roasted veggies
(460) Birthday Cake
Total ???

Jan 28

(460) Birthday Cake
(200) Bulletproof Coffee
(840) Burger, Five Guys
(480) Pistachios in shell
(700) Jambalaya with Sausage
(50) Tea with half and half
(200) 2 eggs
Total 2930

Jan 29… 2k row, 30 shoulder to overhead, 85#, 40 air squats, 10 OHS, 85#, 17:39, Lots of Snatch and OHS practice, 75 and 85#

(200) Bulletproof Coffee
(300) 3 eggs
(515) Salad with lots of veggies, almonds, dressing, parm cheese, raisins
(100) After workout protein drink
(50) Tea with half and half
(50) Tea with half and half
(327) Chili with avocado and parm
(130) 2 small oatmeal cookies
(347) Chili with avocado and parm
(50) Tea with half and half
Total 2069

Jan 30

(200) Bulletproof Coffee
(350) 3 scrambled eggs
(100) Bacon
(90) Cashew Butter
(700) Bonesless pork chop, creamed spinach, roasted butternut squash
(70) Tea with cream and a smidge of sugar
Total 1510

Jan 31

I Just Came Back From Dick’s Sporting Goods

And I’m sorry to say, the entire store still intimidates the heck out of me. It does. My anxiety starts rising the minute I realize I need to go there for something. In fact, I actually put on lipstick before heading into the store… because that’s going to offer me some sort of defense??? Crazy. The entire event was an exercise in anxiety and frustration. Walking in the door is difficult. There is NOTHING in the store… not one thing… in their clothing section that could remotely fit me. I’ve looked. My Hubs has looked. I often feel like screaming, “FAT PEOPLE WORK OUT TOO, ya know… we’re not all lazy bums eating chips on the couch all day!!!” But, apparently, it’s frowned upon to yell things like that in public. So, I quickly walk past the clothing section, looking straight ahead. I head straight to the bikes to look for a helmet. My choices were green, gray, or white. I have a purple bike… so no helmet for me today. Internet, it is.

Next, I head on over to the shoe section to look at the adorable pink Reebok lifting shoes… sooooo cute…. and the entire time I’m there, I have imaginary people in my head, wondering why someone like me… you know… f-a-t… could possibly need lifting shoes or nanos. In reality, there wasn’t anyone around to help me, so I probably wasn’t being judged at all. I did have to ask someone where I could find some tape. She was pretty distracted, and not very helpful, but did point me in the general direction. The shoes had to wait… I was only getting tape today. 

Made my way to the tape section, past those awful, horrible, completely adorable clothes that I don’t have a prayer of fitting in to… 😦  and ended up in team sports. I finally had to ask someone else about the tape… does everyone who works there have to be perfect people who look like they work out??? Turns out, they are out of tape and won’t have more until tomorrow. How does a sports store sell out of tape??? More frustration and it means I’m going to have to go back. 

I do realize it’s mostly in my head. My Hubs was with me (’cause I sure wasn’t going in that store by myself!) and he was baffled when I mentioned how intimidated I was… not exactly being the poster child for physical fitness. He just calmly pointed out all of the things I can do and how far I’ve come… and that makes me exactly the poster child for physical fitness and changing my life. He’s a good man. 🙂 

Speaking of changing my life… I started out the year well… Fight Gone Bad… 199 reps. Yep… one stinking rep away from 200. Sigh. Next year, I’m shooting for 300! It was a great way to ring in the new year and I hope you all started out your new year as happily as I started mine. 

Happy New Years!!!