Where Have I Been???

I seem to have disappeared since January. You might think I’ve abandoned ship and gone back to the old ways of excessive eating and laziness… but not so, promise! I was waylaid by the kids’ Spring schedules. With some weeks having up to 12 kid activities, I nearly lost my mind… and all of my free time. Things are beginning to settle and drop off the table, and I’m finding little pockets of time to do things like update my blog. Has it really been FIVE months!!!

So, how are things going… well, they are awesome, actually. My two year Crossfit-versary is coming up in a few months and I’m going to put some before and after pictures up, even though I’m not yet at my final “After.” For my one year anniversary, I decided to do the Festivus Games. I recently found out that one of my coaches is trying to put together an Oly Lifting competition in September, and that sounds like a perfect 2-year gift to myself. I committed myself to joining the United States Weightlifting Association and made a promise to compete at least once. It sounds weird saying it. It feels weird typing it. I’m doing it anyway!

I have changed some things a bit. My diet has gotten cleaner overall and refined carbs are by and large once a week options usually at dinners out. I hate to jump on the Paleo band wagon, but functionally, that’s pretty much how I eat these days. I do add steel cut oat groats a few times a week if I’ve worked out really hard that day and feel like I need something heavier than meats and veggies.

I also found myself stuck at a months-long plateau that just was NOT moving. Maybe my body was adjusting itself to the changes. Maybe I just needed to do something more. Whatever the reason, I decided it wouldn’t kill me if I dropped my overall calories by about two hundred per day, nothing drastic. I still eat between 1800 and 2500 calories a day, depending on how hard I workout that day. I thought a slight drop might be enough to push my body out of it’s plateau and start the scale moving again. It seems to be working. The scale is inching back in the direction I’d like, but very slowly and consistently, which I also like. I do realize that the scale is not the best tool to measure success, but I have found it helpful as a general measure of how things are looking.

A better tool to measure success… My Clothes!!! It was time to start cleaning out my closet and getting rid of everything size 20 and 22. I did start the process and have two rather large piles of ready to go, but I haven’t actually given them away yet. I will. It’s hard. I feel like I’m getting rid of my safety net and the “What if I need them again?” thoughts are there… but I realize that for my health, both physical and mental, they have to go. I have held on to the size 18’s, but I think I need to let a few of the bigger ones go as well. I’m now comfortably in a size 16w. I’m thrilled and I’m looking forward to getting even fitter! 🙂

Another measure of my success is my medication dropping off the table. When I first started my Journey to Health I was on four different medications. I was taking shots for my glucose every single day, and had been for 7 years. Recently, I was down to just one medication and based on my last round of bloodwork, that medication was CUT IN HALF!!! I’m thrilled!!! I’m really looking forward to the day when I can drop it altogether.

My current plan is to continue the course… Crossfit/Lifting 4-5 times per week, clean eating, lots of sleep.

I also have a few thoughts in my head that I need to blog about, and hopefully with a bit more free time, it won’t be five months until it’s done. Someone asked me what getting to my goal will feel like. It was a shocking question that’s been rattling around in my head for several weeks now. Not once have I ever thought about what getting to my goal will “feel” like. It’s always been a picture. It’s always been physically based. I’ve truly never given any thought to what that’s going to “feel” like, until recently.

I’m also struggling with the concept of “good enough.” What is “good enough?” Is “good enough” actually “good enough?” Short answer… NO! Long answer… I want to blog about it.

So… that’s where I am. I’m pretty happy these days, both with life in general and with me. I’m not sure I’ve ever been this happy with things before. They’re certainly not perfect, but overall, I’m in a great place and I’m really looking forward to what’s next. 🙂